Single dad, 4 kids.

:-/ So I’m a father of 4, non smoker, drink not even 5 times a year, no drugs, going through hard times, working enough literally only just to cover bills, missing a bill one week, just to pay another bill, then vis versus the following week, worked all my life, kids mother has walked out after realising she enjoys the single and social life More then being a mother, so she’s only in the picture for a day here And there. Figure a dad needs some fun in his life too,  just got my motorcycle licence, with no motorcycle so even get out for a day on with friends, just to relax and try enjoy something I something I used to, I love my kids,  there is nothing I wouldn’t i do for them, in hard times we all need to try enjoy something enjoy something. Im just looking looking for help to reach me  my goal of owning my own bike ?