Dying is a cowards way out, call me a coward

[Beevis321]

Im new to this and kinda embarrassed, I work full time it's hard work for a female, I work with all men, I'm sinking in bills I can't lose my car it's what gets me to work, my body hurts me had 4 surgeries but i'm not a quitter, I need $9000.00 to pay it off and may be see light at the end of the tunnel, I suffer from severe depression and have had suicidal thoughts lately, it scares me, any help will be appreciated. 

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