Save me pleas

[dgillist]

Hi, and thank you for visiting I'm  42 years old. I have been working since I was 13 years old. My current job I have held for 20 years. Things have just taken a turn for the worse recently,  and there's no way I can get out of it without the help of other generous people.  If I can get help I want to get back to where I was helping other people. I really do enjoy helping other people. About 2 and a 1/2 years ago a long time acquaintance  Contacted me advising me he had nowhere to go. I had known him for about 10 years we're not extremely close to saw each other occasionally I had helped him in the past with beds he needed for children necessities things like that.   I hadn't heard from him for over 3 years Until then . Hey contact me on the work phone and I was surprised to hear from him.  I did not hesitate to invite them he could stay with me .  His children were staying with their mom. I have always lived alone It was happy that way. I have been thinking of the past 6 months that it would be nice to find someone to share life with. I didn't really believe too much in love and relationships. Well I ended up falling in love with him and  Falling  hard. He was definitely " the one"  And I really did not believe in that until it happened to me. I really enjoyed having someone in was ecstatic.   I did everything I could for him and I enjoyed having someone to do things for . Laundry ,make lunches for him early in the morning before work .  Take his children to and pick them up from school. It was a little one sided but I was OK with that because I was so in love.  He had sold his truck and I was letting him use my car for work  And whatever else. But he took my car for 3 days without contacting me at all.  A lot of other things to just treating me badly.  But again  love had me blind and i would forgive him. About a year into it I won some money on a sweepstakes. contest. My work does not offer retirement  And I hadn't really save anything away, so it was my one chance to have something and be able to help people. It was great I could pay all my bills Help my family and friends . I bought my friend who was living with me a truck. Well he got violent with me a couple times and and end it up going back with his girlfriend I was absolutely devastated. I did not think I could continue to liveIt was awful love is amazing but can be really bad.  I had always been a casual gambler buying a scratcher here and there maybe going to casino once in a while. But this depression turned that into a true Addiction. I could go there and not really think about how devastated I was. Needless to say I lost everything. Tax time came and I hadn't taken taxes out of my winnings.  So I was stuck with a large tax bill.  I  Do not know what I'm going to do now there's no way which is working my job and even another job I can get out of this. I have people who ended up helping me and I really need to pay them back because they can't afford to just donate money and I gave them my word. I don't want to lose what few things I do have to the IRS. I did go to counseling and get over the gambling which is cool but it's a little too late.  What I'm requesting is just what I need to pay back my friends and family who have helped me and figure out the Iris situation. I truly just want to get back to where I was continue helping people When I can. But the situation is very serious right now and your help will make all the difference in the world. I don't know how I can go on if I can't get out of this.  I really appreciate anything you can give and hope this works out. Thank you so much for listening..
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