06-28-2022, 03:26 PM
This is so hard, trying to convince myself that even one person will read this or even care.. it's hard to put this into words.. but I desperately need help to get out of an abusive relationship. I don't have any family and I recently lost my best friend, my only friend, in a really traumatic situation that I unfortunately had to witness..
She was the only person who knew what I was going through and seen it firsthand and was helping me make an exit plan. I lost her on April 4th, 2022.
When Covid hit..everything started to go downhill. This is when my abuser really went all out with everything..
I was no longer allowed to work. I lost my car after he had intentionally driven into it while I tried leaving an argument.
He controlled who I spoke to and who ever he didn't approve of, would make up unrealistic accusations that I was cheating..
there is so much more than this.. it's just too much to put out there..
Now that my best friend is gone, I am pretty much isolated. I have nowhere to get away to. I stay so depressed and I feel hopeless. The screaming for no reason and being kicked out every other day is really tiring.
I have recently been receiving mail showing statements of things I have not ordered. The payments are behind and I have seen the messages he sent to his friend, where he has asked him to order under the account with my name..
I was a very independent person.. When I met my abuser, I fell so hard for him.. He moved in with me where I supported him for 2 years. He manipulated me and physically destroyed everything I had..
A shelter is not an option.. I have tried calling in my area.. They all are full. Besides.. I have my baby boy. He's a dachshund and the one who has stayed by my since before this relationship, who has also taken on some of the physical abuse at times from trying to protect me. I refuse to leave him here and I can't give him up. He needs me, I need him. No shelters allow pets here.
I know I can do this on my own. I just need help to be able to afford a extended hotel stay and rental vehicle, which I can get easily as a Full Service Deliverer as I used to/am still a shopper for Instacart. I plan to do this in the city where the work is always available. Until I can get back on my feet and start over. I am asking anyone who can help me to please donate. It would mean so much to me and my Bubbs. He and I both, deserve better than this.
My PayPal.me: carrib1223
She was the only person who knew what I was going through and seen it firsthand and was helping me make an exit plan. I lost her on April 4th, 2022.
When Covid hit..everything started to go downhill. This is when my abuser really went all out with everything..
I was no longer allowed to work. I lost my car after he had intentionally driven into it while I tried leaving an argument.
He controlled who I spoke to and who ever he didn't approve of, would make up unrealistic accusations that I was cheating..
there is so much more than this.. it's just too much to put out there..
Now that my best friend is gone, I am pretty much isolated. I have nowhere to get away to. I stay so depressed and I feel hopeless. The screaming for no reason and being kicked out every other day is really tiring.
I have recently been receiving mail showing statements of things I have not ordered. The payments are behind and I have seen the messages he sent to his friend, where he has asked him to order under the account with my name..
I was a very independent person.. When I met my abuser, I fell so hard for him.. He moved in with me where I supported him for 2 years. He manipulated me and physically destroyed everything I had..
A shelter is not an option.. I have tried calling in my area.. They all are full. Besides.. I have my baby boy. He's a dachshund and the one who has stayed by my since before this relationship, who has also taken on some of the physical abuse at times from trying to protect me. I refuse to leave him here and I can't give him up. He needs me, I need him. No shelters allow pets here.
I know I can do this on my own. I just need help to be able to afford a extended hotel stay and rental vehicle, which I can get easily as a Full Service Deliverer as I used to/am still a shopper for Instacart. I plan to do this in the city where the work is always available. Until I can get back on my feet and start over. I am asking anyone who can help me to please donate. It would mean so much to me and my Bubbs. He and I both, deserve better than this.
My PayPal.me: carrib1223