Hi there, I know right now times are tough on everyone. I'm a mom of 4 in California and I'm struggling to provide just the bare necessities. If anyone can spare anything to help out my family we would greatly appreciate it. I feel kind of bad not offering anything in return but I don't have much to offer. I haven't completely figured this site out, so if I fail to add a link, my cashapp is $mommashy29. I promise to pay it forward in whatever way that I can, as I usually do. My family thanks you in advance.

thank you for taking the time to read this, I'm in a really tough spot, My name is Nick I live in new Brunswick Canada and work as a security officer. I'm trying to get off a payday loan cycle for years I've been having to do. Constant struggles and no way out. I work 50 hours a week and I'm just trying to keep my head above water. I have a 1 year old and 2 and a half year old and I just want some clarity in life. every day of my life all I think about is money how I'm going to pay the power how I'm going to pay for groceries, what do i have to sell next. And I have no family support. Please if you have anything to spare at all I would be so grateful. 

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My ex-husband of 12 years moved out October 01, 2020 - we were living in a nice apartment paying $1600 a month - which was okay when he lived there because he was making over $65K a year. I thought I would be okay but then in November of 2020 I drove to Delaware on a vacation by myself - my heart was broken and all I could think was I needed to see the Ocean. Why Delaware - I don't know. I drove to Delaware by myself from Minnesota which one way without stopping is 24 hours approximately. Being a single female - I was very nervous to stop and sleep anywhere and so I drove and drove and drove - rarely stopping. My right calf had started feeling weird during the drive and I did not think much of it. 

When I arrived I went straight to the ocean and cried - sad tears, happy tears, relief tears. But my leg still felt weird. I stayed in a hotel that night and the next night I stayed in the AirB&B that I had booked for 4 days. About 2 days after arriving I decided to message my friends that are nurses to see what they thought about my leg. All of them told me to go to the ER. I went to get a massage instead - I told the massage person about my leg and she said she wouldn't massage it and highly recommended an ER visit. Anyway after leaving I decided I should probably go to the ER. I went and was told I had a blood clot that had travelled to both lungs (bilateral pulmonary embolism). I was admitted to the hospital on my vacation. During that time I was hooked up to heart machines, IVs etc and was put on a blood thinner. After 3 or 4 days I was discharged. I stayed another day and needed to start travelling back home to Minnesota.

After being back home - and being on the blood thinner - I started to hemorrhage during my period. I thought I was going to die. I had lost so much blood. I had been in the hospital prior to my travels and it was discovered that I had very large fibroids in and around my uterus which was causing me to bleed more than usual and then adding a blood thinner onto that - all hell broke loose. I went to the ER - my hemoglobin was 8. (should be over 12). Around 7 they would have to do a blood transfusion; I did not need one because my period finally stopped. But it happened again in December 2020. And during this time from December 2022 to March 2021 - I had bacterial infections, UTI, I broke out into hives at one point. 

Finally in March 2021- I had a hysterectomy to help with the bleeding. Two days after my surgery I was not feeling well and was admitted back into the hospital and they discovered the sutures had closed up my urethra causing all the urine to back up into my kidneys. I had an emergency surgery and was in the hospital for a week. 

I was unable to work this entire time and with how much blood I had lost, and the major surgeries I had I was able to barely walk or move. My family did not help me during this time - as per usual - they told me what I went through wasn't a big deal or that I should move since I could not afford to live there yet they didn't want to come help me move. (I couldn't walk remember?) During my time in the hospital the apartment building I lived at started emailing me asking if I would be continuing to live there after June 1st 2021. I told them I was in the hospital and they replied - we need to know by the end of March. Having been through everything I went through and then laying there in the hospital on pain medication - I was in a very vulnerable state and did not want to become homeless - So I signed another lease. After getting out of the hospital about 2 weeks later - I was realizing that was a mistake. I asked to back out of it - it was only April at this time - which means my lease wasnt even up yet and they told me no. I told my apartment many times I cant afford to live here anymore and asked to speak with an uppermanagment person - not an office leasing person - and they would not give me that information for whatever reason. 

I continued living there and using credit cards to pay until I could no longer use them. I could not physically move and was unable to have the energy to leave. November of 2021 - I finally was moving around more - I had started working again - but it was difficult. I did not have a lot of energy to move around. 

Since November of 2020 - to the present: I went through all that I mentioned above - plus more. I moved out of state for awhile to a place I did not know anyone and tried to start over again. I found it to be very difficult and was living in my car, then a hotel for a bit with my cat Bella. I finally was able to find a place to live but the living situation was not going well and the next place I moved the same thing. I had more medical issues that happened, I lived in my car for a week and in that time my cat became ill and no vet would help me with no money. She died. I was able to find a place to temporarily stay but I finally packed up my car and headed back to Minnesota to be near my kids, grandkids and best friend. I am doing the absolute best that I can. I tire easily still and have a hard time working fulltime hours. When I work over 25 hours my entire body becomes inflamed from head to toe. 

I am asking for someone to please just help me to get over this hump. To be on level ground again so that I can start over, start fresh. With everything I went through and being unable to work or pay bills my credit score went from over 700 to under 600. My hope is for someone to help me pay for 6 or 12 months of rent; money for bankruptcy, money to pay off my 2007 Honda, and a little bit of food and gas money. My estimation would be $26,000 (if someone helped with 6 months of rent) up to $34,000 if someone helped me with a year of rent.

I have been unable to rent anywhere due to my credit history. I am living in a run down townhouse with two roommates at this time. I am a 43 year old woman and I need my own space, my own life. I am feeling so stuck, so trapped by this existence. I appreciate all who took the time to read this and hope there is someone out there to help me. Thank You, KD.

Hi I'm a person who doesn't ask for help but at this moment in life I need the help because my last option is asking complete strangers for help and I am in a big hole that I can't get out of so I am asking if someone can please help me in this situation to at least get out of it

Any amount will help please  my paypal is
 http://paypal.me/murlandecajuste1

Hi, my name is Elias, and I am in a country with a financial crisis since 2009!!! I am a plumber here without work!!! The reason is that the people now fix the damages by themselves (the way they can) and keep the money for more urgent issues like taxes, food, medicines, etc. In the last few months, things have been very difficult for me and others like me. This is due to lack of work, the large taxes, the lack of social care, the corona virus pandemic. The reason I came here is that I need money to pay the big taxes we have here. They don't care if you work or not, just to take the money you own them. The bank calls me every day and I don't know what to say to them. Most of the times I don't answer the phone. I know there are good people among us and they want to help the people in need. I will be very grateful if I can collect the money I need for my problems with the bank... Thank you very much for your time and kindness. I don't know what else can I say, write or do...

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Hello! 

I am a student in the Philippines and my mom has been working in Sharjah UAE since 2008 because my father died of cancer. The last time she went home was 2017 and she cried tonight while calling us saying the she really feels homesick and wants to go home. My mom does not have any money saved up because her salary is low and she was also laid off for a while due to the pandemic. Her round trip ticket from Sharjah to the PH costs around 3000 AED or around 800$. As a child, it really feels hopeless not being able to help my mom with anything. I would very much appreciate any help I can get and I would love to meet anyone who helps us. 

paypal link: paypal.me/momplaneticket

Hi, Hope you are all doing well, ,I am an international Student and recently i got scammed of 53000$, I had my fathers account and and since he was very ill I was the only one providing for my family, Recently some scammers got to me and they told me about this scheme where i don't have to invest anything, and i just have to work for 2 hours a day and they can pay me well, but there website was a scam and they used it to get my personal information and from there and they somehow hacked my fathers account, one month has gone by since and now i have no idea what to do, I have spent almost my entire saving on my father's health and also my education funds and they are still not enough, I need to return some money my dad owed and right now i have almost nothing, I came in here very desperately, right now I am the only one who can provide my family and i have 6 dependants and my job is also not well paying, so i need help please, if there's any job i will do for free, but for now I need at least 20000 desperately, you can put me up for any job, regardless of hours and I will do it just please someone help, i can't ask anyone else because few years back i came out as a gay person and in my country and religion , Being gay is illegal, because of that my whole family disowned me, the only people supported me and helped me get out of that country were my immediate family, so now i don't have anyone else. so please any small donation would be highly appreciated.

Paypal Link: https://www.paypal.me/junichiMJ

Hi, Hope you are all doing well, ,I am an international Student and recently i got scammed of 53000$, I had my fathers account and and since he was very ill I was the only one providing for my family, Recently some scammers got to me and they told me about this scheme where i don't have to invest anything, and i just have to work for 2 hours a day and they can pay me well, but there website was a scam and they used it to get my personal information and from there and they somehow hacked my fathers account, one month has gone by since and now i have no idea what to do, I have spent almost my entire saving on my father's health and also my education funds and they are still not enough, I need to return some money my dad owed and right now i have almost nothing, I came in here very desperately, right now I am the only one who can provide my family and i have 6 dependants and my job is also not well paying, so i need help please, if there's any job i will do for free, but for now I need at least 20000 desperately, you can put me up for any job, regardless of hours and I will do it just please someone help, i can't ask anyone else because few years back i came out as a gay person and in my country and religion , Being gay is illegal, because of that my whole family disowned me, the only people supported me and helped me get out of that country were my immediate family, so now i don't have anyone else. so please any small donation would be highly appreciated.

Paypal Link: https://www.paypal.me/junichiMJ

Ive just very recently escaped a severely abusive relationship with my 2 year year old and my dog but we have nothing  I'm asking for $500 to buy us a bed and maybe some new clothes if we have enough left over as we only have 2 outfits each now. please anything will help and everything is absolutely so very appreciated my cashtag for cash app is 
$Jaymoblz1

Help me move away from my abusive household
I’m a 25 y/o queer and “high-functioning autistic” individual, and it is my objective to be living by my own. To do that 100% safely I need 6000$ to start over and pay my debts until end of year and to move from my parents’ house, but still, I’m gonna jump onto the void with nothing but theorical hope and as little money as I have

¿But why? You may ask… ¿haven’t you moved away from your parents’ house?
 Because it’s never that easy to produce for yourself when you have to always return to a place that plagues your mind with fear as you must prioritize survival over any responsibility. For that reason, I have troubles finding or sustaining any long-term job positions, relationships, friendships, education, well, any long term anything really

¿How is exactly your household abusive?
 By forcing me to be somebody I don’t have the capacity to be, when I inevitably fail to meet the expectations my parents imposed on me, they provide more ways to insist on the same expectations, when I fail multiple times and inevitably break I´m sent through multiple therapies to fix me up, and then, thrown again onto the fray to get their impossible expectations fulfilled, failing again, and starting a new cycle all over again.
All of this ends up generating this tourniquet loop that squeezes the life out of me like if I was an old toothpaste tube, with each twist, my life becomes a little more degenerated,
I feel that in order to succeed I must keep things in secret from them so that they don’t trample in to my life looking for a way to forcefully embed themselves on it, usually crushing whatever I was working on.
My biggest wins at the moment are getting to keep my room private, dropping out of college, create a sort of stalemate time on which I’m floating in a “doing nothing with my life state” right now, having control over the little money I get to make occasionally, have a handful of friends scattered around my country and around the globe and having already met the person who I believe is meant to be my lifelong romantic partner.
For more details, read the following section, you can skip it if you want to

FAMILY SECTION (it’s a long appendix to this last question, there is a lot of detail, but this is not the central point)

My dad: For as long as I can remember I was always yelled by my dad because I couldn’t meet his expectations, not in school, not as his baby boy and barely as a person, I was constantly yelled and occasionally fiscally beaten by him until my early teens when I started to be able to defend myself, eventually he sort of gave up on trying to mold me to his created image of what I should be.
right now, on this moment of his life he is begging for emotional validation from me and my sister to keep his sanity, as all that violence has evolved in self-hatred. Responding his pity text It feels like a forced blood transfusion unwillingly taken from me and hanging out with him (it happens occasionally) it’s even worse, as I have to deflect the curve balls of lowkey personal attacks, digest the anxiety he feels for me and my failures and ignore the best as I can his out of place suggestions on how I should fix my life to be just like him, a miserable man always complaining about how the world is so unjust and cruel to him because of *insert whatever bullshit excuse here*.
Fear is what I feel when I’m around him or when he texts me or calls me, and he is always doing it, always with the idea of coming as a sort of wise advisor that will convince me of taking my life in the right direction and sort of fix me into becoming a loving child that is forever grateful for his advice. I have grown sour to him by obvious reasons and I want as much distance with him as possible, at least until he let me live my life my way

My mom: she is more of the protective and deny when in error type of person. Introverted, academic type, “scholarship and titles guarantee safe jobs” mentality. Forced me onto college, not much of an issue, but she does not let me get out, or miss a day (on this part of the world moving out for college is somewhat a rare occurrence). she is also the economic drive force behind the house, as she has a stable job unlike my dad, and she has an iron grip over all her decisions, if she doesn’t perceive the pain it causes or she doesn’t see it relevant, then she ignores it and continue with her original idea.
she is the one that runs the house. This gives her immense power of decision over what can enter or not on my life because I depend on her economy to have a house and don’t starve. She enforces her lifestyle on both her children as unregistered assets of what she perceives as her home. Always found ways, sometimes very forceful ways, to be involved, in some way or another, on all of her children projects, all of them, and she always has the last words over what can be done on the house
Until I dropped out of college, she forced me to always be doing something that she deemed appropriate for my economic future, all attempts on me have failed so far; for her to decide that it was a failure I must be unable to follow through because of either a mental breakdown or an exhaustion crisis.
She also decides what therapies I should go when I break “trying to hit the mark”; a wide range of treatments, from homeopathy to conventional doctors, just once on psychiatric treatment needed when I had a depression crisis on college, when this happened, she finally decided that my decision to not be in college has some value and must be tried
confronting her is somewhat pointless as she denies any argument that could challenge the ways she feels comfortable doing stuff, and when either my sister and I go crazy she deflects all responsibility of both her child mental health problems to my father
Ultimately she has the final saying on any decisions I make over myself, a full grown adult that has little to no agency over his life as long as I’m tied to her house or economy, I’m always doing pointless stuff that take me nowhere and eventually harm me, always trying to survive by living some sort of parallels lives, where I try to put as much effort on surviving, trying to pull my life together and keeping a fake image of myself so that she doesn’t force me onto some other stupid pointless quest that will break me on ways I don’t want to imagine.
She has built this fortress for herself to keep the outside world as irrelevant on her as humanly possible, she has built it around all that she considered valuable, she has built it around me.  More than trapped on a house with her I’m trapped inside her world view.

My sister: she is alright, I’m sorry whatever harm has gone her way because of my constantly degenerating psyche, probably we could have had a better relationship. I’m glad you are building a career on the things you like and have a job on the same area, I’m sure you are gonna make it outside of the house someday. Hope to talk to you when we are both more free
END OF FAMILY SECTION

The last lasting consequences are that I am heavily isolated outside from my family, inability to sustain any long-term project as I must keep up with time consuming bullshit and care for my own survival at the same time and a multiple array of minor psychological problems I don’t yet grasp at the full scope of its severity and variety
I’m grateful still, all this situation has only made completely reversable (I hope) psychological and economical damage and nothing else.
I still have affection for them, I understand that they are doing what they think is the right thing based on their own issues and on what has worked for them, no hard feelings, but if I do nothing I will die on the inside, and promptly thereafter on the outside.

¿Why don’t you stay? You know, ¿why don’t just suck it up and have a guaranteed level of security?
I can tell you where exactly where my life is gonna look when I am 30, just imagine a useless skinny person without any life skills, with no social circle outside family, no money, no career, no children, no happiness, leaving nothing to the world when dead, reduced to be a puppet of his failed parents’ ambitions.
Even with free housing and food it’s not worth it to live here, at this point on my life I rather be a homeless bum on the street, fuck it, I rather have a painful and slow death as homeless crazy person than continue on this degrading path that makes all the bad decisions for me

¿But haven’t you been taken care of?
Yes and no. Yes, I have had a roof over my head, a warm bed, free food, healthcare and schooling, but at the expenses of being chronically lonely, anxious and depressed for most of my life, and they just don’t get it, they have never got it, and they will never look me as more than this fragile infant to be guided on every step.
I have developed personas for my family to pretend that I have my life somewhat in order, but in reality, I barely finish high school, couldn’t finish college, can’t sustain long term social relationships because I’m always exhausted and full of this really miserable existence that takes a mental toll on me daily and I have been battling with depression and suicidal thoughts since 16 y/o, peaking at college when I left it
At this point it feels like I’m just waiting for them to die in order to have agency over my life, but it is really not so much of a life plan, at least not for me, I hope not to anybody
I would rather die than living this mediocre life they are unconsciously paving for me.

¿Will you crash regardless? Out there in the world with nothing more than a school grade and almost no monetizable talents?
It’s possible, but I believe it’s highly unlikely, when I’m away from my home, as if by art of magick, my life improves drastically, I feel full of life capable of doing stuff, taking
opportunities, helping others, finding friends, love… when I get to be on my own disconnected of my home, I’m happy regardless of what comes my way.
¿How can you be so sure about that? I remember every single time my parents lost control over me for some amount of time.
Every. Single. Time.
first time when I was 14 they put me on a month long camp, over there I discover I could love life, and also met my SO still in contact and more than excellent terms to this day 10 years later, and once more to the same camp when I was 15, still the same effect; when I escaped of my home to go to a 4 day camping trip with my friends of said summer camp, and then once more on the senior student trip of my school when I was 18, on two occasions where I got job opportunities in form of contracts once a month long contract on an animal shelter when I was 21 and once more a week on an hotel a couple months ago, also, when my mother got covid when I was 23 and she has to lock herself up on her bedroom and my sister and I had to take care of them.
Suffice to say I did not miss my family on any of those occasions and that also that I felt more alive on those rare moments than in every other moment of my life.

What are your plans?
I want to start over, or start at the very least, away from home
I know exactly where I will go, as I have a friend that will help me get a cheap deal at an apartment rent on the other side of the country. From there I will look for an entry level job or anything that will help me survive. Depending on my income at the time, I will be looking for therapy, start a business or a safe income investment, get education, and from there just looking forward to enjoy my life as much as I can with the people I love
that’s all I need, a shot at life, that’s all that I’m asking, otherwise, ¿why be alive on the first place?
All I ask from this life is to be with my friends and my SO, nothing else really matter to me as nothing will make me happier than that
Please I beg you, don’t let me become the 30 y/o that lives on the expenses of their parents, I will not take that as a possibility, it will be too much to me to handle, be assured that that will not happen regardless but still, I would like a shot at actually living life
I just need a chance, I will give me a chance when I jump to the void this week, with nothing more than a bus ticket to a self-promised wonderland, your economic support will greatly increase my odds of survival
 
If you could let you something, in case I don’t make it, if somebody can take anything from this experience, if you are having a similar experience as mine (even though I whole heartedly expect you are not) I can leave behind me 3 statements
1 without happiness life is worthless, find that which makes you happy and never let it go even in the afterlife, if there is an afterlife, don’t let it go regardless of the situation. As far as my understanding goes, happiness is the only get out of hell free card on the universe, I believe the only reason on why to exist on the first place is to feel good, so in the case you find yourself not being happy you have all the right to change that
2 never ever stay close to people or situations that make you feel unworthy of anything you want to be, do or have. Nothing they provide for you is worth your decision power yourself, not having this will eat you alive slowly, what you understand as you is slowly eroded onto something else that you will inevitably hate. It’s never worth it to endure it, not matter how much they try to make you believe you have to. your desires are sacred, and desire for dignity of life is the most sacred of them all
3 what you do with your life is only your business, nobody, under any circumstances, should tell nobody how to live their lives or what to do with it, from the receiving end its just torture.
I will be eternally grateful for every penny you send my way
-CONDITIONS-
-I will go on a minimum contact mode with all my family of my hometown, this is a desperate escape mission. If everything goes alright, I would never have to put a foot on my house ever again
-I will take a maximum of $6000 on total, once I have reached that milestone I will erase the money links immediately, there is people that need that money more than I do, so I will just take what I need to be secured and stable. on the part of the world where I’m living $6000 will be enough to pay what’s left of my debt and start a project, that will give me more than enough to thrive. I will still be updating regularly for u people to see my progress if that becomes a thing
-I will be updating every other day whenever I can and when relevant stuff has happened, just so you could confirm your money is not going onto a dead person
IF THIS POST IS NOT UPDATED FOR A WEEK STRAIGHT DO NOT DONATE, AS IT MEANS IM DEAD, IN JAIL, OR WORSE, SO IN THAT CASE GIVE THAT MONEY TO SOMEBODY THAT CAN USE IT
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-June the 9nth of 2022
I have just created a document for random internet people to help me get my life back, even if I go alone, even if I die trying to follow my dreams. I will not want it in any other way. The worst that could happen is being pulled back to my parents’ home, which will just be a new opportunity to get away, I have promised myself that if by end of the year I had not make it, I will unalive myself on my birthday which has a convenient day, at least I will know I will cause immeasurable amounts of pain to my family. !at the very least I will have revenge! But at worst all my friends will also suffer, I hope they understand, they will be, sadly, collateral damage. More sadly, a lot of them will not even know I left this world.
 Still don’t know how I will do it, still don’t know if I could muster the courage to do it … that must be a good sign, as I think, even if I’m too sad to find it, there is still some hope for happiness that my soul is clinging to, so let’s focus on that hope I cannot see.
The only thing left to do is buy the bus ticket, talk to my friend, pack a very light bag and pray for the best